After nearly a year without posting any entries, I've suddenly, and without warning, decided to bring this blog back to life.
Following the recent round of New Year's resolutions, it occurs to me that a renewed effort at disciplined writing -- in the form of regular updates -- can help me develop ideas and formulate thoughts more efficiently. The difference for me between typing into an online journal and "crafting" an argument for publication is entirely psychological, of course. When I jot down ideas for this blog, I can do so knowing that I don't have an audience, and that's liberating. I can play around, tease out possibilities, follow a train of thought, collapse into cliche or indulge in grandiloquent prose. I can ramble on and on, in a string of sentences or one big run-on, without fretting about loose strands or dangling participles.
But when I set to work on a piece that I know will see the light of day -- like the three assignments I've got on my plate right now ... more on that later -- I often (and often immediately) find myself blocked. Dunno why. It's been a chronic problem for years, one I'd like to work through and hopefully conquer. That's a major reason I started this blog in the first place, and the main reason I'm resurrecting it now.
Of course, another reason I started this blog was to keep a record of developments at home and abroad and to articulate (or discover) my perspective on them. I wrote the first entry the day after Kerry conceded defeat in 2004 and proceeded to track the first few months of Bush's second term, until I left Details for The Nation and suddenly found myself with much less time on my hands, not to mention an entire staff filled with opinions more articulate than my own. Because of my aspirations and ideological bent, I was drawn toward the 'major' headlines--Bush's illusory mandate, the November assault on Fallujah, the death of Arafat, the Gonzales hearings--and sought to express a progressive point of view on them. It was a modest form of dissent, a way for me to feel like I was 'actively' taking part in the counterspin day by day. And it was good practice, though I tended to assume a formality that wasn't required of me, perhaps because I thought I might develop a small audience and perhaps because I thought the subjects were best served with a tone of moral seriousness. At times I think I recapitulated received opinion instead of exploring my own, or pretended to post by linking to other news sites without original commentary. At other times, when I wasn't being so lazy, the blog entries really did help me arrive at an original perspective on a particular item in the news, or at least send me down a certain path. At its best, the blog was a sort of scratch pad for ideas I might want to develop into published pieces.
That's something I intend to continue doing in Version 2.0, though with a more casual (more honest) voice. This time around, I no longer have aspirations or delusions that this is, or could grow to become, a public forum. Toward a New Mandate is now a private blog, though the door will remain unlocked. If others stumble upon it, they should feel free to come in and poke around. But I will not track viewers to the site, nor encourage those in my personal or virtual network to check out my latest update. And if I decide to scrap the project all over again after a few weeks, nobody will be the wiser.